I’m going to stop. My head is spinning and my heart is writhing. I can’t continue to do this.
What you ask? I’ve been racking my brain in order to discover the map. You know, the crystal clear direction for my life.
For the past two years I have been on a path discovering the huge artistic gauntlet I have at my disposal and to be frank, it terrifies me. I’m supposed to ignore all that and focus on something more practical, right?…..something that will bore me to death. Yes, that’s what I need: to be “normal.” Hmmmm, I wasn’t ever called to any type of normalcy.
Okay God, I’m ready. Lay it on me. Show me exactly where I’m going and when I’ll get there.
Nothing? REALLY?!?!?! Come on, I can’t continue down this road of ambiguity here. I have a husband and two children to consider. I need better directions than this.
It’s at times like this I’m reminded of who’s in charge, and I’m so glad.
I can be crazy unpredictable me and it’s all gonna be okay. Believe it or not, I can love the artist I am and still be a fantastic mother and wife.
Here’s a song that both haunts me and brings great comfort. Take and enjoy. 🙂